I miss my Mommmmy

Sniff, sniff, sniff....she is on her way right now to NY. The visit was way to short. The time went by too fast, we had so many plans but time caught up with us and half of our plans did not come through.

Saying goodbye to her gets harder and harder each time. Each time, I try to be stoic and hold my ground, I try hard not to show too much emotion, but each time, I fail miserably. As she holds me close and tells me that she loves me, I can feel the pain within me starting and my eyes begin to sting and then I can feel the little streams down my cheeks. (Just keep on thinking that she'll be back soon, soon...soon!)

This time around was a bit harder than ever before for two reasons: First, my darlin' Momma has been very sick with RA and it has caused her great pain and it has changed her lifestyle completely. It worries me that she is so far away--in a place where I can't care for her and be there for her.

The second reason are my little ones. They instantly fell in love with their Abuelita and seeing her go was heartbreaking. My little Wonderboy kept a straight face throughout our goodbyes at the airport. He didn't smile, he didn't cry, he didn't do much, just gave Abuelita high five and a kiss. However, as soon as we got to the car and he got in his seat--his little face changed completely and he just started crying non-stop. He wanted his Abuelita and he wanted to go in the plane to NY with Abuelita.  I held him in my arms and reasured him that Abuelita would come back soon (at the same time, I was trying to affirm this to myself too) but as I held him and felt his crying, I started with the crocodile tears again....at the end, my little Wonderboy was my support. Baby Wondergirl just kept on asking for her Grandma and her Uncle....and telling her daddy that "mommy...sad...miss...grandma" (she talks in one word sentences).

Although we are a bit sad...we have hope, she has promised to move closer to us...maybe in two years, or if everything goes well a bit sooner. In the mean time, we will cherish our little mini-vacations together. Grandma come back soon!!! (She reads my blog over at the library...Mami, regrese pronto!--la extranamos mucho!).

Pictures of yummy food coming up....think yummy salad and some very tasty Corundas and Pork in Green Salsa......yuummmm.

Here is a mini-slide of more pictures with Abuelita....

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Comments

[Patricia]

Isela, I too live far away from my mom and I understand how you feel. My dad passed away this summer and it has been hard not being near my mom to be able to help her through it. I call her on the phone often, but that is no substitute for hugs. I hope your mom and brother get to move closer to you soon. The time you and your children spend with her is precious and special to all.

Patricia

[Carole]

I hope your mom's plans to move closer to you come true really soon.

[Cindy in Oregon]

Isela, your mom is younger than me! ACK!!! You are both beautiful. I hope she can visit again soon and relocate to be closer to you and the little ones, too. :)

[Denise]

you sure she is not your sister?
My mommy comes in at midnight! Look out!

[Becky]

aw, now I'm crying too...

[Brenda]

Cool slide show thing!
My Mom suffers greatly from RA too, awful disease. She's 70 now, has had it since her late 20s. She's endured a lot of pain over the years.

[Kim]

My parents just left yesterday and I know exactly how you feel! We have really missed them!

Your mom is lovely, and it looks like you had a great time!

[KnitPastis]

So glad that you and the kids got to spend some time with your mom! She is so pretty! Hope she gets to move closer to you soon.

[Dixie--Indiana]

My mommy is coming to spend the weekend with my family this weekend...your posts have really made me miss her and she is only one and a half hours away! You have some GREAT pics to cherish of you and she and I know you had a WONDERFUL time....

[Fawn]

It's touching to hear how much your mom means to you.It really is rare these days for grown kids (especially women) to have that kind of relationship with their mothers. I read this and it makes me hope that someday my daughter will grow up and feel about me the same way that you feel about your mom.

[susan]

Hey, Isela, I saw your book listed on Amazon today.
I bow before you. ;D

[Hope]

What a beautiful family you have. I know how much you miss your mom when she leaves, but she's in your heart, your thoughts and your prayers - and you're in hers - so in that way you're both still very close to each other. I hope she's able to move closer to you soon. It would be wonderful for all of you.

[Amy]

I'm sure she misses y'all just as much. I'll keep my fingers crossed that a move is in their future.

I saw your book on Amazon. How cool is that????

Amy

[jacqui wheadon]

Abuelita! No! thats your sister surely you are both so young looking. You have fantastic genes in your family. Its lovely to see how much you care for each other not all of us are so lucky. Hugs Jacqui in OZ

[Connie Haney]

Isela,
Your mom is beautiful, you can certainly tell where your beauty comes from. You both radiate your inner beauty as well!

[Pam Keville]

Oh Isela!
Your photos bring us right in to your family! How precious!! You have such a wonderful family...and my goodness girl... you & your mom look more like sisters! I envy you having such a close relationship with your mom. My mom passed away 2 January's ago & it still doesn't feel real. I get the urge to call her to this day!
Cherish your family as if it were your last day together!

[Deb B. in VA]

I agree with others. Someone lied to you. She is NOT your mother! Sister or cousin, maybe...

I'm glad you had a great time with your mama, and I do hope you'll get to have LOTS more soon!